Noah and the Rainbow

I am very tired physically...maybe coz of the lack of sleep for the past 2 days...but ok lah...still feeling very blessed by the Lord for all things in life...

My darling has been very busy and tired these days...i'm worried for him...but i noe God is teaching things...or rather at every stage of our lives, there is something valuable to learn.

For me, it has been a time of revelaton. Of learning from the Word on how i should live my life...
once i stray from His presence i will sin....therefore i am learning what it means to let the Word guide my path...

No i am no saint...i still err alot...in my thoughts and speech and actions...sometimes i am even unaware that i sinned....but my dear God, He did not give up on me...He reminds...

Today i learnt about Noah's ark and as the lecturer was droning on, my mind drifted to Noah's return to land after the water receded. The world has changed. The friends that he used to call upon were no longer there...there were 8 persons on earth- Noah's family and that was all. Imagine the fear he would have when he hears a thunder or see a lightning...Rain...it must have been fearful. Because it was revolutionary and drastic....and before Noah knew it, they were all gone...flesh and blood..humans...

God comforted and assured at a time like this....HE smelled Noah's fragrant offering and calmed Noah with His Word, his Covenant....HE used a beautiful symbol as a witness to his Covenant...the Rainbow...

I can't imagine how Noah felt...God cares...God loves...God knows...God comforts....God calms...

This same God is my GOd...i believe He will bless me in the same way...His presence, the Holy Spirit, is my comforter....He walks with me...

They say we should not look only to God's blessings but to GOd, we should not keep wanting but learn to give....
I say....looking to GOd is looking to GOd's blessings for GOd is Blessing...Wat can i give to my Lord except a heart that craves, longs, wants, and seek after Him?

They say it is selfish to want GOd to keep giving...i say,"GOd keep giving, empower me beyond words....keep giving...i want more of u!"....and that wanting is giving...GOd....You are my idol...superstar...

you are YOU ----beyond words.

Blessings...Thank GOd

Today is Tuesday. I'm still feeling thankful and joyful for all that the Lord has done in my life.

Yesterday, after my birthday celebration, Danny prayed for me and i felt so touched by GOd.

So touched by all that He has done for me that i had to type it all down to remember and to praise Him...

I dun deserve His grace and salvation...i dun deserve a relationship with him...i am unworthy before Him...He made me but i left Him....

I thank Him for stirring in me a desire to return to Him once again and to seek Him...if without His prompting, i will never return to His side, to taste of His wonderful and agape love...

I am so thankful for the community of believers who love me and bless my life with joy and relationships...so thankful that He used me over the years...so thankful that He even gave me a boyfriend at the age of 21 till now...

He made my lovely parents...He carved my path, He sought for my love and gave me love....far beyond words, i cannot expressed that amount of gratitude i have for Him....

...for the beauty in the creation, the trees in the fields, the flowers on the grass...the birds in the sky, the oxygen in the air....

For the path HE led me on....all the way to university when i face a twist of fate by being in social work...what Grace he lavishes unto me...

I think i am really a blessed little girl...loved by my Heavenly Father...I want to be in awe of Him every day...i want to be an obedient girl who live by His word, i want His bible to be my manual for living....i want to season my words with salt.

I want...from the bottom of my heart...not because i have to...but because i long to...

And i pray that this longing will never ever depart from me...

That time will not drown my love for our Majestic God...that time will only serves to bring us closer...and me nearer and nearer to the reality of Eternity.


To be your creation. It is a GRACE beyond description.
To be redeemed. It is ...WOW.

Thank GOd for this birthday :)

I feel loved.

Very loved.

Silently or maybe loudly.

I am offically 22 years old now...i did not expect to have a wild and glamourous celebration with lots of surprises and pressies...i din even expect my friends to remember my birthday. i hope but somehow this year i dun feel the excitement and now that i'm past 21, i dun think it will be a grand affair.

I knew i had to go to school for project meeting on Monday (27th March which is my birthday) and work on my attachment journal or slack at home in the morning and afternoon.

So on Sunday, i celebrated. With dad, mum and Danny. I had a nice lunch with Danny at a Jap restaurant and we watched "V for Ven". Thereafter, dad and mum came and we shopped for a good and expensive computer chair (to ease my backache) as my birthday pressie ( in addition to the very lovely phone that they gave me few weeks back as early birthday pressie). Next, we went for dinner at Sakura in Simei and spent more money on eating, though this time round, there were 4 of us stuffing ourselves with good and spicy food.

Zhihao came and gave me a card and voucher for more food! Luo Mushi msged me and wished me happy birthday, and Wenxin came with a muji pencil case and a 5-in-1 muji pen, a muji eraser and a muji notepad! Thank you! Wenxin waited and chatted with me in the hope of wishing me happy birthday when the clock struck 12 but at 11+, mindy called up from UK. This silly girl has been very sweet every year, sending me presents from overseas without fail...this year i got a white silly ugly adorable bunny and a card that prints 'Dan and mouse' at the back, all from Marks and Spencer and also 3 very pretty and shuyi-like bracelets....ooohhh...so loved... :) Then Mr Koh, my boyfriend and darling, called too. Shortly after, Jane and Lizhen Jie called and the most touching thing is i think they called from the airport the moment they got off the plane from Hong Kong. While i chatted, Aloy, my dear dear always-there brother gave me a missed call. Then he msged and told me he loves me and wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Not forgetting Charlotte's call in the middle of the night while she cultivated dark rings and stored up treasures in Heaven. It was very touching and i felt very loved....still...till now...and i guess forevermore...

On 27th March morning, i woke up and told my mum that i am grateful that she gave birth to me, i thanked her and stroke her face and she was very touched that i remembered all that she went thru to give birth to me and she thanked me for bringing joy into her life... subsequently i received alot of messsages from my dear frens- Yann Howe, Pearlyn, Yimin, Ms Wong (from GB and Previously AHS scouts), Bernice, Jery Toh, Rev Luo's wife, my cousin (Huimin), Meiyin (who helped with my collection of contact lens and was stuck in the library studying hard and looking a little stressed....well,i am praying that she will have peace of heart while she studies...), Xiaoyu (who called me during lunch hour!!!), Boon Hian, Qixi, Yanbing and Yingli, Sihui,....not forgetting Angie and Hobbes who called while i was in NUS library. Lizhen and Lindy from my Social Work attachment project sweetly and lovingly bought me a chocolate muffin and poke strawberry POCKY sticks as candles to celebrate my birthday...oh.and wishes from Hansel and hui Hui..God has blessed me with so much love and concern from those around....not forgetting Huijuan and Jiansheng and all those who wished me happy birthday on my blog Tag board!!! Wow...i am no big shot but God places so many people in my life to love and care for me...beyond imagination...

When i finished with my project, i went to Danny's house. He gave me a surprise....with flowers and fruit cake( which he ate happily thereafter...ahahaha :P), sparklers and light sticks....so sweet...uncle and auntie wished me happy birthday too...he was so sweet...Not forgetting the fact that he already bought me a very nice and funky sweater and treated me to good food and movie the day before...! What a blessed girl i am to have a boyfriend like this! He prayed for me and i cried....coz God has blesses me with so much...so unbelievable.

The greatest gift is a piece of news from my brother regarding himself when i spoke on (long distance) the phone with him in the morning....nope, not the fact that he is buying a fossil watch for me but something regarding himself and i am so happy to see him happy....happy to see him blessed...so joyful for him upon hearing his good news...( ...secret though).

My birthday has been great...i felt very pampered and as usual loved...maybe coz everyone noes my language of love is gift...ahaha...really thank God...

This year as i approach another year of my life, i asked God for a pressie too - a heart that will be in awe of him, that i may be meek and humble before him and not take my eyes off Him....this is my greatest wish for this year....i have gotten many presents...i hope and ask for more....just this one more....for God to answer this prayer and to give that focus and love for Him....Will you bless me with this Father?

Ask and it shall be given, Seek and ye shall find, Knock and the door shall be opened unto you...

Grant it to me Lord...





For all You have given, may i never be an ingrate.

Thank you God

Thank you God.

Again. But when?

The same story has been in my mind for some time....

It is the story of Noah's Ark.

They asked if we truly truly believe in that story- the story of the Ark and the Flood.

The Flood that ended the world once.

The judgement that came once on earth and took away ALL except 8 from Noah's family.

It hit me very very VERY HARD.


Indeed, the flood came and i believe it.

Jesus referred to the flood and i believe Jesus, therefore i believe. The Bible mentioned it and i believe because i believe the bible.

Judgement has come on earth once.

The Lord said that it will come and in Noah's day, no one believed except a few...then the flood came and those who did not believe were swept away.

The Lord said He will come again and this time with FIRE. Across the globe not many believed, but i believe it will come and those who do not believe will ... ...

The Lord has said and decreed...and all i ask is more time...MORE TIME...to share with my loved ones, my family, my dear friends...

To share.


God....work in them...please....

Pain vs Joy...i prefer the birthday part!

I had backache from 12+ midnight to 5+ am this morning!!!

Ahhhh....pain pain... ;(

Every 5 minutes changing postures, sitting, standing, stretching, lying down...wow...and the pain was so bad that i actually can't fall asleep! For near to 5 hours somemore! Excruciating man!

:(

Therefore i din go to school today...


Oh well...



K! Enough. Change of atmosphere...

I went shopping yesterday! I have a birthday list!!! Bro bro will buy me a watch, danny will get me a sweater/jacket, i formed my birthday list for janet too- a topshop bag and a belt and a pair of formal flats!!! yeah!!!

As for myself, i will get a new pencil case with a collection of nice pens! Oh how i love Muji!!! I'm coming in a few days' time!!! :)

Happieee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tis birthday time!!! :)

Just Sharing...

Today i decided not to go down to the agency....wanna do my term paper for sociology of food though i just handed up my 2500+ words sociology of family essay...humph...

Feeling a little lost...dunno how to start my essay or my day...Yesterday has been a long long day at home typing essay, handing up bio assignment, trying to share to taxi uncle about his and my faith, meeting for agency and eventually having some time to sit around with char and meiyin till 11pm in NUS...reached home very late but managed to spend some time with papa and mama then do QT and sleep...

Today? Nothing and nowhere to rush to....just time alone...i am so tempted to pick up a book and start reading...but i noe i should be working on my paper...

Life. Oh well....i only have maybe....70 odd years on earth before heading to heaven for eternity...i should try to make the best use of my time...

Owe my life and everything to God....and He assigned tasks on earth...maybe He noes that i dun wanna work in heaven next time i just wanna stick to Him and His glory and sing praises to Him...so now must work more on earth...ahahaha...just joking...

:)

At the end of it all, tis nice to be unhurried, joyful and peaceful in the midst of the datelines....to be happy that i am not living for myself but for a greater Being than me...the Great "I AM"... :)

Taxi uncle was very nice when he warned me not to become to absorb in my religion and faith...sweet of him but too late...i already gave my heart to my creator...i want to live for Him ...learning every day, learning every way....my heart is not mine....tis my Father's...how i wish i set my eyes on my dear brother Jesus every moment...my saviour...my focus...He knew how to live life on earth in view of eternity... :)

:) COOL!!!! Jesus is a cool brother and God is my Father....WOW!!! I am truly from a reputable family!!!! YEAH!!!!!

*lingering sweet feeling....*

:(

Supposed to be doing work but i ended up reading other's blogs again...

This time with so much tears and prayers...looking to you...Lord of heaven and Earth....

Wondering what i am doing with my time...

when my brothers and sisters are experiencing pain and weariness...when they struggles with their faith...

My heart is aching so much....why why why?

How should i use my time that i may serve and bless others?

GOd....be with them....be with every one of them...be with my them...

Sorry Lord...i have not supported and cared and loved enough....

Too many have fallen away...

Too many.

:(

oh i feel blessed wor!

We decided to start bible study together.

Learning to see each other as siblings in Christ.

Beautiful.

Thank you GOd.

Indeed, i love to pray with Danny, to share about all i learnt with Danny, to seek God with Danny.

What great joy to be able to share the greatest love of my life with another human being!!!

Thank you God...



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Sometimes i wonder why u bless me with so much...beyond imagination...all those words that u left behind, the love letter that i can reread over and over again all my life...allowing me to be in Your Goodness...Wow...

U are not just good....You are so generous to share all these with me! Normally people keep the good things for themselves...but You are different...You share and reveal...the best to me!!!

Yourself.

And u captivated me....your love letter, your presence, your legacy, your beauty, your majesty...

YOU!

Thank you...it has been a great year thus far....great lessons and great people u placed in my life!

I love love love u....gee :P

Oh Oh...and a silly and adorable cell that warms my heart....thank you...

Thank you...

How blessed i am....

May u be blessed seeing how blessed i am...

:)

We shared In Him

We spoke and shared.

We poured everything out tonight. Just now.

About our relationship, about our Faith, about our God.

It was beautiful.

So many a times, i asked and begged for a turning point in my life. I prayed for him too but never for a turning point. I should and shall.
Indeed, that we may never lose that focus in Him again. A sharp focus, two lives and more filled by the Holy Spirit.

Nothing makes me love him more, but his heart when he speaks of God.

And then i realised, the deepest and greatest love is shared only in God.
The most precious and impressionable presence is also found only when two of us come before God.

Father, that two may not be distracted by each other.
That two will come together to encourage each other to be upward looking and not merely looking at each other.

That our love will be founded in You.

That's when and where it is blossoming.

In You.

Thank you for him.

&

Thank you for Him.

I'm truly blessed :)

72 yrs old auntie

Had a crazy week....
Spent many nites on my knees and in tears...haha...
Stress level is high and energy level low...

Thank God that the dependency level is high at times like this! Or else i won't be able to survive...
By Sunday, hopefully all the stress will be over!!! Yeah! Sunday is coming!

God has used many channels to speak to me this week. His bible especially has been a great help and support.

On Wednesday, i met a 72 years old lady who shared about how she would cycle to Pasir Ris Beach from Tampines every day to do QT....so sweet...and the passion and strength from the Lord...
It was really encouraging. Auntie was heading to Toa Payoh for some bible study lesson at some church filled with Taiwanese Christians....years of experience never erode auntie's faith...it added praise to her lips and seasoned her....
Auntie said that she lost her ability to sing and what misery it has been for the past few years...to be unable to lift up praises to worship the Lord...

It was a blessing for me...that very day to meet her....a stranger who encourages, who loves, who speaks and who blesses...

The Lord works in ways we cannot see and touches me beyond words...amazing..These days He taught me about His presence and my responsibility to love as i walk on this earth for Him...Auntie did it...

She erred and married a non-christian, she struggled but as i talked to her, i knew the Lord has worked in ways beyond human imagination. The vibrant spirit and love in her has blessed me so much...72 years old...

May i be like her....to follow the examples of leaders who walked before me and to model their behaviour as they model Christ...

For the momentary life on this earth, i seek to follow Christ.
For eternity, dwelling in His presence.

Struggles with schoolwork and Attachment, lack of time for personal life, stress from projects and workshop preparations...i want to praise God in the midst of .............my tears.

Thank You Father for being so real these days.

Packing up the Mess

Alright!

Another new day....felt abit like JC days when i woke up in the morning realising that i am so lagging behind in my schoolwork...

But tis another day of striving....

all consequences i have to carry for the time wasted.

So much for wanting to be a good girl...another day of sacrifice to my Father...hope it is not a sacrifice with defects but an offering pleasing to Him....

Jiayou Shoeee!!!!

Jiayou everyone!!!

Reality is In Eternity-God the Alpha and Omega

Reality is where God is.

Am i blind to have walked in the ways of the World?

My God revealed much about my life these days.
That this life is not focused enough on Him.
That this life did not worship Him enough.
That this life is not His all the time.
That this life did not meet the standards of the Bible.
This life cannot face Him yet.

That i am Holy Ground everywhere i go. That there is a burning bush every turn i make. That actions and words that comes out of me must bring glory to God.

To season my words, my life with salt.
To give an undivided heart.
To speak and live with passion.
To be accountable for second in Him.
To enjoy in his presence as i work my way around and in this world.
To perform my duties in View of ETERNITY.
That i may know that i can bring a smile to God and make Him feel sweet in the Heart when i show him my report card on this Earth over my lifespan here.
That he may be comforted that His child did not go astray.
That He may know His child loves Him.

What overwhelming pain for the time i have wasted....the regrets...the pain i have inflicted on the Father living a self centred life.

A turning point...










Father, forgive me....By the blood of the Lamb i come forth once again, otherwise eternally condemned...now i come...

Because i am covered by His blood, i no longer live for myself...

But for God.
Covered in His blood.
Covered and loved.
Therefore redeemed by You.
I am no longer dead for death is separation from God.
You called me Yours once again...
I am so honoured.

What Majesty accompanied by Grace and Mercy.

Loved.

I AM so loved by you :)

blogskins

Haven been blogging for quite some time...

Was wasting alot of my time surfing for nice blogskins...

Ended up with this current design...

Really like the dancing shoes...made me feel so happy..

I think i wil eventually revert back to my old blogskin but till then, I will use this...

Have been learning alot these days...

A pity i was wasting my time on blogskins instead of typing them down...

Now i got to start work...

Jiayou Shoeee!!!

My big GOd is SOooo Lovely!!!!!

I led worship once again!
The feeling is great...

Tis been so long since i last led worship...
Nope tis not perfect, but i did it with my heart...

And i worship my Lord God Almighty...

This year, i am feeling this strength from the Lord, courage to take things up, obedient to follow and humility to make mistakes and apologised. Nope, not all ready but learning...always learning...

I think...

I miss leading worship even though i am flat and sharp sometimes, i fear, i .....

I still miss leading.

Spoke to a social work friend today and felt very blessed thereafter. Like my God is working in lives everywhere....calling people from all corners of the world to serve him in unique paths that He set for them. Special and beautiful. My Lord works every day in every way...he works mightily and actively....How proud i am to be His daugther...

I want to be a walking pride of His...i want to be one who walks for Him on this earth...

Nope i am not any high and mighty leader who is a role model to many....but with the little i have, i will serve Him...

I have a dream...but i shall keep it low...till He speaks, till it comes true...i shall keep low...

Father, speak and show me in Your Time.