***I want my Reality in Eternity...yes Lord?*

~I miss the Garden Days...I Need an Intense Longing for Your Spirit to Fill me,to Have the Bible as my Manual 4 Living... MORE than Anything else, to Meet You,Overwhelmed & In Awe...in Eden...In Communion & Fellowship...~

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I hate living with the Kohs!

SOOOOoooooo here we are again....

In a place of dissatisfaction.

How can you leave me alone for 2 nights in a row?

To pursue your nourishment as a Christian and to bring your dad to a doctor?

When I did not even have a chance to have a quiet time.

When I did not even have the chance to take care of my mum when she is going through hell for OUR family.


Can't he go by himself? Is it the money? Then give him the money....why do they expect to receive all the time?

Why then are my family giving all the time?

How have we bless our family???

Why do I have to wake up in the morning and face differential treatment even when it comes to helping with the children?

Why do I live in a household full of KOHs??? So much so that they spill over to my mother's place!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it.

I hate it that while Im going through all these, you are pursuing your dreams and your life!!!!

I hate it!!!

I hate it that you can to bathe leisurely and prepare happily and then come and rush me when you get out of the toilet at the same time.

I hate it that all of you are always doing things without thinking....without thinking how others are packing the shit behind your back.


I hate it that I have to share my house just because U chose not to save when you were rich enough to even own a factory.

I hate all of it!

I hate the lack of planning and the expectation that others will always be there to pick up your shit.

I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Please pray with me each time u read this*

1) That i may be broken before the Lord daily
2) That I may abide in Him and that He may abide in me
3) That the Peace of God may direct my steps daily
4) That the Joy of the Lord be the Light of my life
5) That the Love of the Lord will overflow out of me