Hee....crap stuff!

Oh this is so so so beautiful!!! I like them so much!
They can be found at http://duckzbunny.blogspot.com/ but quite ex....

Oh oh i haven posted a photo of my room...this is how it looks like....but the table quite messy...
And this is how my fingers look after i practised on the guitar...PAIN!!! but i am enjoying it!
Hahaha....in the mood of posting pictures....

Praise the Lord, our Refuge, Help and Rock

Psalm 20

1 May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;

may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

2 May he send you help from the sanctuary

and grant you support from Zion.

3 May he remember all your sacrifices

and accept your burnt offerings. Selah

4 May he give you the desire of your heart

and make all your plans succeed.

5 We will shout for joy when you are victorious

and will lift up our banners in the name of our God.

May the LORD grant all your requests.

6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed;

he answers him from his holy heaven

with the saving power of his right hand.

7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,

but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

8 They are brought to their knees and fall,

but we rise up and stand firm.

9 O LORD, save the king!

Answer us when we call!

Praise be to God who hears the prayers of mere man!
Praise be to God who answers us when we are in distress!
Praise be to God who send protection, help and support!
Praise be to God who remembers and accepts our sacrifices!
Praise be to God who grants us the desires of our hearts!
Praise be to God who makes us plans succeed!
Praise be to God who allows us to be His Anointed!
Praise be to God whose Name we put our trust on!

May all praise, glory and honour be unto you forever and ever!

We are called here and now.

Was praying for God to use me mightily when i thot of all the social work friends around me...


And i began praising God....



I dun think it is by chance that we are all brought together...


Definitely not...


And i really believe that God is working in our midst and blessing us mightily, equipping us to shine for Him in this world


I am so absolutely convinced that we are surely going to shine for Christ as his soldiers, children etc in wherever we go....we will be built up, we will be a blessing....


WE will Shine For CHRIST for He lives in Us and i rejoice in the LOrd who Delights in his children....



I am surely blessed where i am....




Acts 17: 25-28

25And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else.

26From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.

27God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us.

28'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'

Thank You for walking this journey with me, us, everyone...

Everyone is happily studying in the library....!

I am happy too!

Happily reading blogs and now blogging! :)

Was just reading about the lives that each individual is leading and thinking to myself...

God you must be really busy; but then again, if you are God, Mighty and Powerful, i guess without the constraints of time and resources, you can do an amazing job managing each of our destiny...

Then again, i really dun understand anything about what you are doing and i dun seek to understand....coz i noe i am dull and stupid as a little human being and you made me intelligent as i am made to be...i will be your little Girl, your Own and that's enough for me...more than enough...

Father God, you noe, i can't understand anyone around me coz you set all of us on different paths with different histories, personalities and characters...sometimes everyone just feel so remote and distant coz we each have our own lives to lead...

But You, You are so near to each of our hearts, so close to our hearts, only You can get that close and only You can walk this journey of life with us, walk through our thoughts and dreams, our mistakes and our little victories, our joy and our pains with us...that's why You are so dear to me at least....but ya la...u are so dear to me for uncountable reasons...

Each of our lives so carefully and beautifully engineered by You, Your fingerprints are all over my past, present and future, in the lives of everyone on this earth...wow!

At times like this, when everyone seemed to be leading a life of their own, when everyone has to go through different seasons, when everyone has different callings and directions in life...When i suddenly feel like i will never understand anyone...

I remember You and i thank You for Your presence made the world of difference, i noe there is Someone who understands everyone...i noe that i am not left alone, i noe that neither of my suffering friends are alone, i noe that many are sharing their joy with You, i noe that Your presence and Your Eyes that penetrate the hearts of man is with us and on us...


And i just wanna thank You....

Thank You that man can have no anonymity, confidentiality or privacy in life because there is never a time when there is only 'me'....it will always be 'us'....'God and man'...


Though some fear this transparency between God and man....i love it....i love it to the core!!!



Thank You for sharing the innermost journey with me...



I invite you to run my heart, soul, mind and strength today....


In my thoughts, emotions, words, actions, etc...


Be with me and lead me, My Shepherd and Lover....



The Maker of Heaven and Earth...


I adore You this moment, today, and i pray forevermore....

Hear my prayer, Father!!!

MY PAST

Joel 2:25 (New American Standard Bible)
25"Then I will make up to you for the years
That the swarming locust has eaten,
The creeping locust, the stripping locust and the gnawing locust,
My great army which I sent among you.

MY PRESENT

Isaiah 58:12 (New American Standard Bible)
12"Those from among you will rebuild the ancient ruins;
You will raise up the age-old foundations;
And you will be called the repairer of the breach,
The restorer of the streets in which to dwell

MY FUTURE

Revelation 3:12 (New American Standard Bible)
12He who overcomes, I will make him a pillar in the temple of My God, and he will not go out from it anymore; and I will write on him the name of My God, and the name of the city of My God, the new Jerusalem, which comes down out of heaven from My God, and My new name.

PRAYER:

FATHER, I WANT TO PRESS IN WITH MEEKNESS AND HUMILITY, IN AWE AND OVERWHELMED BY MY AWESOME GOD…I WANT TO LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE AND AT ALL TIMES…TO HEAR YOU SO REAL IN MY LIFE, TO PROPHESY AND PRAY IN YOUR WILL AND NAME…ABIDING IN YOU AND HAVING YOU ABIDE IN ME…FOR YOU ARE IN ME, WITH ME AND THROUGH ME…NEVER LET ME GO BACK TO MY OLD SELF; INSTEAD RULE MY HEART AND MIND IN CHRIST JESUS TO THE HOURS, MINUTES AND SECONDS OF MY LIFE…PLEASE….I WANT TO HEAR YOU WHISPER MY NAME EVEN WHEN I WALK IN THE BUSY WORLD…I NOE U HEAR MY PRAYER…I NOE…ANSWER IT FATHER…

Another New Day...

I am so physically tired...came to the library to study but i am so tired...

Some funny people was playing the guitar, chatting and laughing late last night...they stopped fooling around close to 4 a.m. and i tossed and turned in bed for as long as i can remember until four plus....waking up here and there in the early morning with every opened doors and chatters of the early birds...y would some sleep so late and others wake up so early?

I was so pissed to the point i told God i understand why pple in the old testament call down curses and i prayed that He will help me not to discriminate that particular ethnic group that caused the noise pollution last night...

This morning, He reminded me that i am sharing the space with many others and of which many have not come to know Christ. There is a lot of expectations coz God's law is written in our hearts and revealed in our consciences but i must realise that those who does not know the Great I Am does not have to walk as children of Light...

...if there is anyone who is going to make a difference, it is going to be me...because i am graciously called by Him into fellowship with Goodness, Beauty and Truth..as Children of Light, Bearer of the light that the world so needs...

I felt that i needed so much time to myself but i too noe that i have no right to pull a long face even if i had a horrible night...too bad...no matter what befalls, we still go out with the joy, grace and love of the Lord...this is what i am learning....

As flowery as some would paint it, i like to say that 'being a new creation' is not an easy process but of course it is no phariseetic act as well...As much as i think i am changing for the Lord, He is helping me to change, As he is changing me, i respond to Him and changes...an evolution of the new self, or a return to how i was made to be...'me' in the hands of my Maker intended for fellowship and worship, for praise and glory, to be dedicated to the Lord Almighty, the Sovereign and Loving...where steadfastness and faithfulness meet, righteousness and peace meet...when His creation is molded and transformed...

What beauty He beholds and what glory has been given to those He calls His Own, to partake in the glorious transformation...


I am delighted
I am honored
I am excited
I am aroused
i am moved
i am changed
i am sanctified
i am...

All in, through and with my Glorious Lord...

Praise you God...

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Oh...

I am learning how to play guitar at this ripe old age...help me Father, if the earthly Father noes how to give good gifts, how much more will my Heavenly Father give to those who sought to improve themselves to worship you....grant me this little gift....that i may serve you, grant me the determination and the coordination...little by little, or by leaps and bounds, let me find you not just in words but in songs as well...help me to sing a new song to you, to play a melody to you, to dance a little for you...that i may bring joy to You, praise and honour that You so deserves...


Thank You God...Thank you...


Love you, Shoeee!

Tuesdays with morrie

I just read 'Tuesdays with Morrie'.

Cried from the last few chapters till the end of the book...

Ask me why...

I dunno...i have this soft spot for this thing call Love...
love in relationship between human beings

Love in a family especially

Love in a marriage

Love displayed

My little heart understands not the big and great things of the world
it has little wisdom and knowledge...

But it understands...a little...about the language of love....thankfully...


Showered with much, i haven mastered the skill of giving...


but tis okay...



i am learning and....


MORE SOOOOO...


My God is a God of LOVE....


And i am in Him....


He has made me the way i am...


The silly girl who is moved to tears (EVERYTIME) when she sees one saying "i love you" to another...

Seeing ronghui's birthday celebration moves me to tears....
Seeing the video in class about marriage moves me to tears....

Nonetheless, i thank God i am made of tears....at least this silly heart with prideful mind can never stand against the moving scenes when love is displayed and magnified...


Thank You God for who i am..for how useless and how easily i tear (in the eyes of the world)...for how weak i am in the face of Love....

Thank you for everything

Thank you for LOVE....

Away from the bustling activities,frm Festive Seasons to where You are..

This new year is really draining for me...

busyness of the heart...

Fear that i won't get into the good books of Danny's mum...

I din noe my past has such great impact on me and that my fears are so magnified by it...

Think i need a really long time to work with these irrational thots but i guess at the end of the day, the past that serves me for better and for worse in the present can be changed in the future because i have the GOd who is in control of the PAST, PRESENT and FUTURE.

And that really makes the world of difference.

Returning to hall, i heard about others' visitations and i just knew that this new year is another season for me. Unlike the rest, it wasn't a time of walking out as a beacon of light...really...it was more of a struggle to find the peace in the this loud and strange world that i live in...

Just a few days ago, i was thinking: If i am a babe in Christ, then i am truly learning the ways of Christ and this is unfamiliar ground; yet choosing between the familiarity that breeds dissensions and pain, inflict hurts and hurls insults, i would rather re-learn everything all over again...in Christ...

No longer just knowing that the Lord is good....it is also knowing that the ways of the Lord is good and embracing them...loving the Lord and all that is in Him...

Loving the silence of the room...loving the space given to me...an empty room for me and My GOD...basking in the LOVE of the One who calls me His Own, whose voice only His own recognises...


The beauty of the Lord is beheld in silence...where there is little futile words, and actions....loving the privacy that his little girl so needs....


I just want to say: I love you Lord....


With all my heart, this moment, with every moment that i remember you, i wanna say i love you...may this walk be one that is shared with you...reduce the frequency of me wandering away, my Lord....bring me to you at all times...to the place where i find and meet you...to where all honor and glory and power be given unto you...

I praise ...

my Heavenly Father,

my King,

my Sovereign Lord,

my Friend,

my confidant,

my Joy,

my Cross,

my Life,

my Redeemer,

my Love...

Love is in the Air!

Suffered from blog-reading withdrawal syndrome for the week coz i got no internet connection in hall...

Today i had the opportunity to read everyone's posts and to update myself on the details in my friends' lives...

Technology can be so amazing...

-------------------Anywayz....

Everyone's writing about Valentine's Day! Haha....

So i decided i shall do the same!

Well,

This year is a little different...

I did not have time alone with Danny...in fact, i din even plan to meet up with him.


Felt a little like...ermmzz...it is not a 'must' to celebrate this day because the celebration and whoo haa in itself no longer carry so much weight.


Well, and of course i had lesson till 9pm and i am staying in hall and tis troublesome to travel...

But my dearie was sooo sweet....after 2 days of messages with a little story in each message, he appeared when i was having valentine's day supper with my friends!


He brought with him Kenny Rogers side dishES and a ROASTED CHICKEN and a whole NYDC mocha Cheesecake to celebrate with (not just me but also my friends) us!


So we chatted and he took the time to know my good neighbours and social work buddies....

We din have time alone except a short time of prayer to entrust the relationship to GOd and to Thank Him for His GREAT blessing in this 2 years plus plus...

This V-day is really weird, more like a social gathering...sala...should be a time of fellowship...

YEt, more than ever, i was touched by Danny's little thoughtful acts and everything that happened that fateful night of his appearance in hall...


What i see on this day is not just romantic love but also God's love....a love that is shared, love that is giving, love that is not self seeking or merely couple-focused...


Ya noe, My boyfriend is growing....in Christ, and that has great effects on his relationship with everyone....Coz God is Love.
Danny has shown himself to be more and more loving as he indulges and basks in the love of God...Praise God!

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Today, we (me and Dearie) went shopping with my best friend,Jane. Not alone again.


Tis times like these when i tell God: Thank you for Danny....i am loving him more and more not because we are more and more caught up with each other....but because our love can now be shared with more and more people...not all inclusive and selfish.....and tis so beautiful...


God's love can be shared....may Danny and my love be shared with many as well...


Praise GOd...You are the source of love...You are Love....You never fail for love never fails...


GLory be to your Name...to You...may honor and blessing and power be to you...the Perfect Love and Perfect Lover of Man....


Beyond understanding, Your Love CHANGES our lives...who are we that you should love us?



PRaise YOu...Hallelujah....Praise You!!! Hosanna!!!! Praise You!!!!!!!!!!!!!

moving into hall

This is my 4th day staying in Ridgeview residences...still not used to it...

Read Gerard's blog and realised that he has settled in real fast...

But as for me....it wasn't that simple...

I seemed to have lost the privacy of my room...and that privacy is not really between man but a meeting place for me and my Great Big God...

I no longer have the space that i used to have and i seemed to have to consider more things when i have friends around me...

It really used to be so so so PRIVATE...not like this...like now...


Yeah..i need some time to settle in...to find that meeting place again...that stillness from all the busyness...moving in and meeting up with friends...

I need to move in the Spirit, to let Him govern the seconds, minutes and even hours of my daily life, from the smallest detail...oh how i need to find the balance...the privacy of a loud person...the whisper amidst the shoutings, the gentleness in the boisterous world...i need to find that STILLNESS...

And as for now, i am still a little lost....just a little...i hate to admit it but sometimes the busyness of my heart sets a veil between me and God and the moment i am out of His will, i am out of the game and race and i want none of that....none of that...


Only God and God Alone...


I need You so much....SO much!!!!!!!!!!!

Every part of my being cries out....I need you...


MEET ME......please...

Random thots

Some thots...



Love for beautiful clothes, yearning for achivements and accomplishments, concern with status in life...

They are all means to an end...

To fill the void that so desires attention, care and concern,
a place that can only be satisfied by love


And that LOVE can only be FOUND in GOD




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We can only perform and serve well at work and in ministry



when we fully comprehend GOd's love for us....



Till then will we find that we are not driven by returns and gains....



but motivated by PERFECT LOVE



without fear, and not withholding...



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We NEED AND OUGHT to treasure our FELLOWSHIP with GOd...



Because it came at a GREAT PRICE




Only to remove the temple veil




FOR MAN TO MEET GOD once again




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In the garden, man succumbed to SIN


In the garden, "take my cup yet not my will, but yours be done".





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Who is this God that i know yet never comprehend.....

*awed*

PAUSE and *rest*

I think i am stressed.

I have been getting diarrhea again...IBS...

Have been tired out when i reach home these days...






Really maxed out.



My dearie suffered and i am suffering from intense guilt coz i dun tok to him or is not there for him.





I dun like this....


I dun like this lack of peace....i haven felt irritation for so long....




But it is coming....





What is wrong???

I need to pause

and REST

"In repentance and rest is your salvation,

in quietness and trust is your strength,

Behold His BEAUTY....

Which is more attractive?

The World.....

OR

The Beauty of the Lord?

Why can't we see your beauty???

Draw us Father...

Psalm 50

1 The Mighty One, God, the LORD,

speaks and summons the earth

from the rising of the sun to the place where it sets.

2 From Zion, perfect in beauty,

God shines forth.

Show forth your beauty that we will be CAPTIVATED....

Psalm 27

4 One thing I ask of the LORD,

this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the LORD

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD

and to seek him in his temple.

Please Lord...