cry out!

Let's be DESPERATE for GOD!!!

Be MAD, ALL PassionATe About HIm!!!

Ooooohhhhh.....STEADy FLame,

Burn DEePer and BRigHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Birthday surprise...

Today is SY's birthday. Happy that everything turned out well. Weather was good. Surprise was successful. Food was great and i am glad we finished eating almost 99% of the food (NO WASTAGE!!). Pple enjoyed themselves. Pple prayed. SY cried and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and ate and laugh and smiled and laugh and teased and poured hershey chocolate on me and chased us and screamed and laugh. Happy Birthday My friend of wisdom, of ultimate faith, of "Moses who negoitiated with God", of " i HATE WORSHIP, boo sob sob", of "i can play guitar for cellgroup now albeit in key of C only.. haha", of "oh no the mp3 player died on me BUT GOD planned it to blessed me! hehehehehehahaha".... (i can go for days describing your unique personality)

At the end, lord we just want to be with you, holding hands and walking and talking and loving and feeling and touching and kissing and hugging every day in our life. Becos "one with Christ is the majority" (Mili, 2007), becos God works for the good of all who love him, becos you love us first, becos all my hope is in you............................................

Here i am, send me!! X 10

(Gerard, 2007)

How to describe my birthday? I think Gerard expresses it better than i do...and that's wat he wrote and i agreed totally...even his prayer at the end...



Thank you God for good friends...

One Wish Emcompasses All

It's my birthday today.

And there is only one thing i desire to seek after...

Your Kingdom and Your Righteousness....

Oh Father...Oh Jesus...Oh Holy Spirit...

Rain down your blessing on this earth....

Fall on me and on those You called, is calling and will call.....

Come....come oh Lord.....Save us....wretched and broken people.....

come.................

Faith vs works

There was a time when i lived by faith and not by works...

Coz i had nothing but faith

There was a time when i live by faith but more by works...

Because i thot i was ready.

But now,

I am beginning to realise that...

There is no room for works, only faith...

And my works has to become a product of my faith,

Coz the more i learn about God...

the more i realise there is so little in man....

What works has we but that which the Lord has given for us to live out by faith that it will bring results....

Coz only God makes everything grow...

I am only watering....

Let faith be accompanied by works and let works become a product of faith...

Hair Therapy

Tis been exactly one week since we cut hair...hair therapy i call it...after we had our presentation and after i received the worst results since the day i stepped into NUS...

Today, i was reminded once again of the amount of work weighing on us when my friend recounted the datelines and the projects that we have at hand...

Oh well, something fun for me here...

he was the first to cut hair coz it was too dishevelled....look at that smug looking face!

He was like a small boy, most obedient customer that any hairdresser would like to have...haha..kept his head as straight as possible...look at the design at the side, i like the shaved lines!

This is definitely not her haircut but from a certain angel, she actually looked like she had short bob hair cut...interesting though she din really appreciate this cut initially...oh well, anyway from other angles, it look totally different...

And i had a neat haircut on the day itself when they washed and blew down my hair...haiz...tis no longer so neat now with the blow-dry... but it was good hair therapy...

Kenny cut the next day though i din manage to capture him...

...funny how actions are coordinated when people stay in hall...

Then again, we got to find fun amidst datelines...

God, help us tide thru this period.....

Testify about my God

Yesterday I told God i need to meet Him...

I need Him to meet me...

:)

I have learnt over these few months that God would meet man...

He met Moses in the Tent of Meeting...

And i've always wanted to meet him...

And He reveals Himself from time to time...

Yesterday...i needed to meet Him...

Exodus 33: 18

Moses said,' Please show me your glory.'

As i spread myself under the stars...

I heard the whisper of the wind...

And saw the spectacular sky slowly engulfed by the thick passing clouds...

I saw this...

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And i was afraid...

I was amazed...

I was in awe of the Majesty of my Lord...

Who can stand before Him?

Let alone see His Glory in its Fullness...

Who am I?

Psalm 8

3 When I consider your heavens,

the work of your fingers,

the moon and the stars,

which you have set in place,
4 what is man that you are mindful of him,

the son of man that you care for him?

And when i did my bible reading later on...

He said this...

Deuteronomy 31:15

And the Lord apeared in the tent in pillar of cloud. And the pillar of cloud stood over the entrance of the tent.

I thot He din reveal Himself to me...but i was wrong...He did and it was so real...and my heart feared and my heart recognised the Lord though my mind failed to see Him..

The Lord has been so real...

Thank you God :)

I was tired but now i am refreshed

work till 5am on Monday...all through Sunday Night...

... ...

slept for 2+ hours before preparing for presentation...

... ...

went for presentation and received my test results

... ...

Cried.

... ...

Slept.

... ...

Cut my hair

... ...

Talked on the phone and went for dinner

... ...

How did God refresh His little Girl?

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by showing me the Fear of the Lord through nature and its wonder...

The clouds and the shooting star...

Through a talk with Gerard...

Through a time of prayer...

Through a talk with Hansel...

... ...

Through the rest (sleep) that is awaiting me...!

Who says life is easy all the time?

Din He tell us to carry the cross and follow Him?

Din He say,

'The Lord is near to the broken hearted and saves the crushed in spirit.'

(Psalm 34:18)

Therefore, i will yet again say,

Psalm 117

1Praise the LORD, all nations;

Laud Him, all peoples!

2For His lovingkindness is great toward us,

And the truth of the LORD is everlasting.

Praise the LORD!

Let Go and Let God

So many a times, we find ourselves called to do so much....

so many a times it felt too heavy...

so many a times we sought to do it as though it is an obliging and painful task...

We clung on to all that we have as though they were ours, as though we possess them...and only we can work it out with our hands...only we are capable...*snigger*

-But we can only do this much...to cling on for dear life and think that we are at our best...-

We dun seem to realise the existence of the One greater than us who is constantly involved and perpetually by our side, interested in what we are doing...Calling us to where we are now...and deciding what we are doing...

In our striving, we sought to leave our footprints behind in everything...to claim credit...in our striving, the best we can offer is only what the flesh can offer...and everytime the flesh is in control, we are not at our best...dun think the prideful self will concur with this...
And we forgot about the footprints of the One slained for our sake...

We forgot that He is here with us...

We forgot that His Strength is greater than ours...

We wrestle and lay claims on all that we dun have to hold on to...

Including the pain, fears, sufferings, weariness etc.

You said...

'Let me walk with you, use my strength...

child, i am your strength,

my ways are higher than your ways...

seek me out...

i want to carry you through the desert...'

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."(Matthew 11:28-30)

Yet time and again, we say,

"We feel safer when we are in control..."

Church, Let Go and Let God...

i am blessed..by my BLESSED LORD...

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I am called! Hee....pleasantly surprised...You are laying my path and directing my steps!

*blink*

...to be shown my place....to received a revelation of myself... to noe a little of who i am made to be...

To see the clientele group that i might be created to bless....to accept a little of who i can be...that i might be able to work with them...youths....adolescents...to be in need of time to myself, yet....to enjoy the presence and company of others...needing little private space...tt's shuyi...me! His own...a Christ-ian...

No need to hurry or rush....slowly searching...for my place on this earth...my place where i can be blessing the most in the season most suited for me....as i learn...as i slowly seek...

Thank you God....i am so pleasantly surprised by how ready you reveal your plans....by your guidance....by the glimpses of Your Mighty Works....by You....

Thank you :)

It was God, not me...

To you whom i am called to serve with...

I am so surprised to find myself mentioned in your blog...

Totally unprepared for your descriptions.

I dunno wat to say...but...

"Who am I?"

I kept asking...

"How is it possible?"

You whom i respect...

I am speechless...

I dun understand...

If there anything i can safely say...

It is...

'Praise be to God'

'for i am so undeserving'

And thank you for your affirmation.

Emmanuel

My brain juice is used up.

I am responding psychosomatically to the 5 hours of intense project group discussion...breaking out into cold sweats and experiencing hot flushes...and i noe that my lump is growing because the veins at the back of my neck are really tight...tugging at me...

I called up Danny and realised that he is so stressed out....tired and drained from the immensity of work on his side...

End up, i sang worship songs over the phone to him and to God...hoping that it makes him feel a little better...

well...i was ministered through the songs...at least someone (myself) benefited...

My headache is not gone...but tis ok...i had a good time just now just rotting in my room...



RESTING.



Thank God that today is such a blessing coz through the stress, the brainstorming, the discussion, the singing, the phone conversation...through it all...GOd has shown Himself to be EMMANUEL...and that is so comforting to His weary ones...to me.



The presence of the Lord satisfies....



He is Sufficient.



He is more than SUFFICIENT.



Praise you Father :)

ooohhhh...i love God's standards and blessings!

Today i learnt about God's GENEROSITY!

And i am soooo thankful that He is such a Giving God!

And He is so into details! The minute details in my life....

I like the idea of my Lord being so exact about beauty, goodness, order, purity, holiness etc...

I like the idea that my Lord has such beautiful and uncomprehensible standards...

I love the God who not just observe the happenings in the lives of His own

But also seeks us out and gives generously to us...

I am so blessed to have a God who cares about my needs...

And settles my wants ...

only asking for me to seek His Righteousness and Kingdom

though i really struggle with that...







*i dun even noe how to express myself*







But i am just elated to noe that the little details are looked into and turned into great blessings for His own...

He is just so ready to give....to give life and to give it so abundantly...

And i dun have to worry when He is handling everything coz His aesthetics, His choice, His order, His EVERYTHING far surpasses the understanding of man...



And those who noe me and my anal habits will understand y i just love my God so much and is so glad to be blessed by Him....and blessed in so many ways with such high quality blessings...never sub standard, never inferior, never boring....

And never too little as long as i ask, i will receive if i ask in His will and in Faith...not because i am some high and mighty fellow but because He is SOOOOOO generous...


I am so thankful...



My God is simply AWESOME!

*My! Beyond Words!*

Sin, Me and my Lovely Jesus!

Some thoughts that linger on...

Our words show the condition of our innermost heart condition.

If God says one thing and everyone on earth says another, God is right and everyone is wrong.

Jews have plenty of advantages but they are no better before God than Gentiles; the same can be said of Christians.
Christians have plenty of privileges but they are no better before God than others if not for the blood of Jesus.

Romans 3:12
There is no one righteous, not even one BECOZ no one is righteous except for my Lord Jesus.

We are not sinners becoz we sin, we sin becoz we are sinners.

With the law comes sin, thank God, with Jesus comes Grace.

When you comes to terms with your depravity, then will you find yourself needing God so badly.