God is unfathomable :)

My God is unfathomable. His ways are higher than mine and His thoughts are beyond my wildest imagination. The foolishness of God is wiser than the wisdom of man, man plans but the Lord determines his steps.

Who? Who can foreknow? Only the one whom the Lord chooses to reveal His affairs to...and revelation and prophecy only comes in parts anyway.

The mind of God blows my mind apart. Just trying to understand a day, my very own day, leaves me speechless, in awe, in reverent fear, gasping desperately for understanding...


The Lord has never fail me nor not answer ANY of my prayers SINCE the day i stepped into a classroom, from St Stephen to East Spring. Each time i felt that i couldn't manage, the Lord would grant me an easier class or allow me to have a shorter day.


And today i have more to testify about His faithfulness and grace in answering my prayers.


I dunno y but i think God was the one who was leading to pray what i prayed this morning. I was apprehensive about the new week and Monday always leaves me feeling jittery and unsettled about many things, doesn't help when i am not prepared for class because i have yet to speak to my in-charge about their expectations of my pull-out class.


I just wanted something nice so i prayed for a day of SURPRISES. And a day of SURPRISES He gave.


I had 3 periods with my P6 but they went for outing.
I had 2 periods with my P2 but there was a change in timetabling for the day and they had assembly during my periods.
I had 2 periods with my P4 but the teacher wanted to do diagnostic exercise with them and invited me to just sit in and observe, the other teacher is absent.
I had 1 relief period but guess what? The teacher returned from the field and wanted to take the class so she told me to have a break.


You noe, only God can arrange a timetable that was filled and emptied out. Not a single class. He saw my anxieties, fears and tears and He removed everything and i was SHOCKED. Not just surprised but shocked. i was FEARFUL.


And the lingering thought is:

WHO IS THIS GOD WHOM I AM PRAYING TO?

Fear gripped me. What if HE decided not to use me at the rate i am grumbling and complaining and mourning? What if? What if? What if?


Alas....



My God is an Awesome God, He rules over Heaven and Earth...



What can i say?




But...





God...the Name that the Israelites do not even dare to speak of...Y*W*H...



Blessed be Thy Holy Name!

Timetable fixed

I got my timetable yesterday.

I think...

I miss relieving classes.

I think...

I really miss managing a class.

I miss marking.

I miss looking firm.

I miss....much more...


I've always wanted a fixed timetable. Now it seems like having a fixed timetable may not be such a good idea after all.

Hmmm...wat is God planning for me?




***i am feeling a little unfulfilled. Just a little.***





Shuyi really can't be left alone on her own to expend the burgeoning amount of energy built up within her...




Maybe i have ADHD.

ToDaY is a NEW DAY!!!

Today is a brand new day, a gift from my Lord God.

I started the working week on a good note and a time of order and open communication....communion and fellowship...therefore my heart is so filled with joy now :)

This morning i woke up to an appointment with my Lord God and He reminded me of my Church and all the Christians in Singapore - To intercede for everyone to be able to forget what is behind us, successes and failures, to embrace the present with expectant heart knowing that the Lord God has NEW mercies every day and that the Lord is able to perform miracles and refresh our souls and the church with every approaching and passing moment.

I love to begin my day and week like this. I love to arrange my room and pack up the mess created throughout the week. There was once i heard a speaker say that a christian whose life is in order is one who does not exhibit sloth, who trains himself / herself up physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually - to be prepared for battle at all time, to be ready to meet Jesus daily and to receive Him with comfort instead of fear when He returns. I want to lead this kind of life.

I want to wake up to a nice morning chat with God. I want to exercise at least twice a week to keep fit. I want to learn to play the guitar to express my love and all my emotions for the day to the Lord. I want to read the Bible and chew on it tastefully daily.

I want...i want...i need...i need...

So much wants and needs...how greedy...but how fulfilling a life that would be...fully utilised and stretched....to give not just a hundred percent of myself but to be able to give a thousand percent of myself...as an offering.....to burn with passion for Jesus, to offer up offering without blemish...

I want to embrace today. I want to embrace all i am facing today and i want to supercede expectations and be innovative when i plan my lessons...i want English to be interesting. I want all that i do to be creative.

I want to bless with every opportunity present. I want...i want...

Oh may the Good Lord grant me Strength to bless His Name and those He loves, for TODAY.

One day at a time. To give my ALL daily.


***GRINZ!***

Give thanks to the Lord God Almighty

3 different tents to set up in my life....

One for worship
One for Praise
One for Thanksgiving

Yup, Rejoice in the Lord Always!

"The Lord has already done great things for us"...

Yesterday i was so extremely demoralised...
Today, i'm not going to yank to a low spirit!

The strength and comfort from the Lord is enough to sustain me and to lift me up to a higher level than before. It is He who provides the people who loves and adores me...it is He who works in the lives of men to touch others' lives...because He who is in them is greater than those in the world...

He who is in me is greater than any discouragement and stupidity that tries to get me down!!!

UP UP UP!

A new day, on higher ground...because the Lord lives...

This journey in school serves to humble me and thrash my pride so that i can be moulded...so praise the Lord...!

New day, new dependance...

New day, another day to conquer victoriously.

The beginning of success....another high spirited day!!!

Jiayou Shuyi!
Jiayou Ariel!
Jiayou you daughter of the Most High God!


JIAYOU JIAYOU!

Praise the Lord :)

Secretly...

It has been a long long long time since i last blogged. My laptop crashed on me.

Am currently in the school now with tons and tons of thoughts jumbled up within. I just sensed that there is so much on my heart but i dun have the slightest idea how to articulate my words.

Life in XXX has been....

first of all....HUMBLING.

The Shuyi who always thought that she has a way with children finds herself at the loss because she hasn't even adapted to the school culture.

WEll, everyone is very nice and it is not stressful, the students are friendly and most of them behave themselves but something seems to be missing.

Maybe i am talking about constancy here. Though it has been a few weeks since school started, i still haven't had my class, no formally announced mentor and no idea what subjects i am helping out in the classes i'll be assigned to.

I so longed to become a full fledged teacher instead of having to wait and pause here and there, awaiting timetabling and relieving different classes every day.

Maybe at the end of everything, i felt like i am shortchanging the students because i was not prepared each time i enter a class, without desk copies many a times, and it dun help when i am untrained.

Demoralised? more so paralysed. Paralysed because i am not thrown to live or die. Though stressful and unsure, i enjoyed taking a class for a week when the teacher is on reservice, i enjoy staying back to mark books and check corrections. I even enjoy being thrashed by students who does not respect me...at least i learn and i can see my progression in a constant setting.

Now, i can only sit back and wait for my relief periods. Now i can only hope that i can teach well though i am not well prepared. Now i can only learn as much.

But the one day i am in this school, i was to absorb all that i can...i want to grow, i want to thrive. I may be untrained but i want to thrive as an untrained teacher.

God, i need your help and blessings. I need the favor of the LOrd GOd Almighty. I need the protection of the Lord GOd Almighty.

I only have one wish- TO SHINE FOR YOU....TO SHINE FOR YOU.

That at the end of the day, this christian teacher has been a blessing and not burden. This christian teacher has been a salt and light to those around me.

BLess you JEsus.