You matter to me...

It wasn't easy to not be affected.

COz we are all just human....

Walking this journey with you has been very tiring and more draining when i read and hear comments about me....

I noe you think that i am a hyprocite...but you will remain a brother to me....

Because i believe that God is going to use you and He is molding you...yes, you are right in some of your harsh comments about me but like you, i am undergoing transformation by the Lord GOd Almighty...

You dunno...really dunno the amount of hurt i felt throughout this period of time....the amount of tears i have dropped because of you....as i struggle with your issues....

I love you, brother....and i din regret walking this journey with you...

for i benefitted from it as well and i grew as a person learning to discern when you are angry and when u are purely making a stand for God....

I wish you well....really.

Hope that the next time we talk, your anger has subsided and that God has shown you what is unconditional love. That the love of Christ will bring joyful fellowship once again.

You are still a friend to me, my brother.

I cared and am still caring for you.

I wish you knew....


It matters to me.....You matter to me.


If only you knew.

As one belonging to Christ

Had a great great talk with my stupid silly dear sis yesterday....was shown alot of insights into the lives that some of my friends in social work exude...haha...quite fun and more so, encouraging...

HOw i love this point of time in my life.....with so many lovely leaders who walk by faith around me....yup, for there are indeed a cloud of witnesses surrounding us...people who craves for God in the pilgrimage of life....a journey of unceasing sanctification and growth...a season in our eternity set aside to fall, break and make....a time when my potter moulds me before He brings me home into His Glorious presence....a time of waiting....waiting for the ultimate Bridegroom to fetch me home....Before the exaltation of the Saints....waiting for the time when my Glorious Father will receive me Home....back HOme... :)

Had a heart to heart talk with Danny sharing about Christ and how we should be a Christian.....how i hope with Faith that he may see that Glorious One as the only reason for living, to be so overwhelmed by His presence so that all things become shadows in the Light of Him....such a lovely brother, filled with gentleness and love...my boyfriend... :)

Now i am preparing for my thesis proposal....tight for time but i need to focus....to be efficient but not to rush...to be ready not hurried....

To be one belonging to Christ and to live as one belonging to Christ.

Praise the Lord. Hallelujah.

Roller coaster leads me to GOd...tired but joyful

Tis another new day....been so long since i last blogged but the lesson now is soooo boring...

Hmmm....life has been so good....so much that i am going thru....so stretched....yet SOooo Gooodddd.....y?

Major breakdowns, tiredness, weariness, violence, anger, fear, doubt....so much to deal with...

But God has shown Himself so AMAZINGLY during this period of time....

All in all, the roller coaster ride is worth it....as long as YOu are by my side....


Thank You GOd... :)

AMen!

5Your eyes will see this and you will say, "The LORD be magnified beyond the border of Israel!"
Sin of the Priests

6" 'A son honors his father, and a servant his master Then if I am a father, where is My honor? And if I am a master, where is My respect?' says the LORD of hosts to you, O priests who despise My name. But you say, 'How have we despised Your name?'
7"You are presenting defiled food upon My altar But you say, 'How have we defiled You?' In that you say, 'The table of the LORD is to be despised.'
8"But when you present the blind for sacrifice, is it not evil? And when you present the lame and sick, is it not evil? Why not offer it to your governor? Would he be pleased with you? Or would he receive you kindly?" says the LORD of hosts.
9"But now will you not entreat God's favor, that He may be gracious to us? With such an offering on your part, will He receive any of you kindly?" says the LORD of hosts.
10"Oh that there were one among you who would shut the gates, that you might not uselessly kindle fire on My altar! I am not pleased with you," says the LORD of hosts, "nor will I accept an offering from you.
11"For from the rising of the sun even to its setting, My name will be great among the nations, and in every place incense is going to be offered to My name, and a grain offering that is pure; for My name will be great among the nations," says the LORD of hosts.
12"But you are profaning it, in that you say, 'The table of the Lord is defiled, and as for its fruit, its food is to be despised.'
13"You also say, 'My, how tiresome it is!' And you disdainfully sniff at it," says the LORD of hosts, "and you bring what was taken by robbery and what is lame or sick; so you bring the offering! Should I receive that from your hand?" says the LORD.
14"But cursed be the swindler who has a male in his flock and vows it, but sacrifices a blemished animal to the Lord, for I am a great King," says the LORD of hosts, "and My name is feared among the nations."

With a pending dateline, it is so hard to do things unhurriedly, to enjoy what i am doing, at times when i feel like i am competing with time, i find it so so so hard to enjoy that peace that comes from you...

I am writing a paper now...not even penning things down yet....i reckon those around me has started and are halfway thru but me...i am still stuck here and my heart is beating at a rate against my will....

Father Lord, stop me! Stop the anxiety and calm me down....grant me the stillness within my soul...help me to noe that GOd u are with me and life is not about meeting datelines...

i want to do my best, but i dun wanna be stuck in the anxieties of datelines....therefore i am here blogging to you GOd... MAy the Lord GOd Almighty, powerful and gracious, take pity on your servant and grant me a heart of peace, a heart that lays all things down at your feet, even my nearing assignment, let your servant noe that it is all within your HAnds and that you are watching me and you are Emmanuel..You are with me!!!! With me....help me to noe what it means to have the Lord God ALmighty on my side....to noe that you who raised the dead and who watches people die minute by minute noeing your mission on this earth led a life that is submitted unto the Lord FAther...help me to learn to walk this earth the way you tread the path....

Jesus, my Brother, my guide, my saviour, my examplary Lord, you walk these days noeing that every minute people are perishing yet you live to 33 years before it is all truly accomplished....how hurried you must have felt if you weren't trusting in the Lord....help me to trust...what is an assignment to the deaths that occur every minute....ain't it all in my Father's beautiful plan?

Show your daugther....show your desperate daugther the peace you can offer...FAther Lord touch me and speak to me.....let your presence be with me....Now....i need you Lord...i need you NOW....meet me FAther....MEet me.....i need you so much....so much so much..... Slow me down....

grant me trust....grant me peace....grant me joy.....grant me faith.....grant me strength...grant me perseverence....grant me Thyself... I love you Lord... Satisfy me now with you faithful presence...

Be with your DAUGHTER
hAVE MERCY ON YOUR SERVANT....


Hear me Lord...Hear me out...

LOVe you Lord!

At Dear Danny's house now...

TRYING to read up for my SW 4103 research paper...;)

This feels lika a very heavy semester but a sem with God's abundant grace and peace....well, thank God :)

As i read my silly Appendix A, i actually feel rather at ease...haha...maybe coz it is starkly clear to me that all these are going to help me in my thesis research because i will have to noe how to look for my articles and also to do a proper research like those in the journals that i am digesting...my policy paper will help me with my macro aspects and my network support will help me in future work as a social worker. Even family intervention can aid me in my thesis topic or has to do with families.... ahaahahaha...

Am really glad and thankful that the Lord is blessing me in this time....my previous 'torture' has become an '"ok" time of studying'.....won't be without the intervention of GOd...

It is tiring and strenous and it can be stressful at times but GOd himself has guided and paced me....i prayed that HE will help me to enjoy my studies and as faithful as HE is, HE answers my prAyErS! HeE~

THank you GOd, may you con't to shower me with your blessings Lord....the blessing of YOur Presence and the blessing of your PEace...

GOd, i need you... Hugz!!! :)