MISTAKES and GROWTH

Yesterday, i did a marathon when i watch this Korean Show starred by Rain for 7 hours straight. And i found this tremendous sense of guilt when i shut down the DVD player. I reflected over my actions and wondered what went wrong, how have i sinned against God? is it wrong to watch DVD for long hours during my holidays? Or is wrong to play so much?

Then it came to me.

Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial.
There is a time and season for everything.
There is a difference in indulgence and play.

and as i typed, i suddenly remembered that i am on a fast and i am a watchman.

King David would not have fallen into the Bathsheba temptation if he had gone for war with his troops. When did it all begin? To me, it begins when one chooses sloth or chooses to take a break in the season for war and conquest. It was the wrong season for rest. He allowed himself the window of time for leisure and his eyes caught sight of the wrong thing. The bible says our eyes is the lamp of the body. This pair of eyes must set itself on the right things and for me, i haven chosen to set it on the TV screen and allow my soul and my flesh to follow the show for 7 hours straight at the expense of my rest - which is crucial for me to be alert when i pray during my watch hours. I have chosen what is secondary, done the wrong things, indulgence to be more accurate, in this season of prayer, fasting prayer.

Some people think that others are great Christians because they have this and that gifts, because they see visions and dream dreams. At the end of the day, ain't all these purely the grace and the workings of the Lord? The past few months, i have seen and come into contact with so many highly gifted Christians with great passion and zeal, extraordinary life stories and testimonies but i have also seen how many chased after miracles and presence without the commitment to bless. At the end of the day, i learnt that there needs to be a very fine balance between being faithful to all the giftings of the Holy Spirit and living out the fruits of the Spirit. We can all be Samsons, with great strength and might

but so little, so little wisdom.

God, teach me and help be to be teachable,
to learn and to live,
to love and to bless,
to be faithful and obedient,
to be watchful and alert,
to be so in love and in tune with you that my life will not waste away again.
Help me such that the frequencies of me leaving you will shorten to minutes and seconds,
that at all times, i will seek Your countenance and Your Goodness,
and be so refined such that i will really be able to bear the testimony of

Christ and His Kingdom.

Ripples, Mighty Waves to Come

Ripples

Now is a season when i am observing the ripples...i am not the one who is stirring the water but One who is far greater than me is bringing in the current.

Ripple works at the moment but huge waves will follow.

This i believe will take place in the church i watch out for.

Who am i but the firstfruits, maybe many have gone before me and i am not even the firstfruit...i do not know but one thing i noe, is my call to stay in this place, to go against the comfortable billows...

Ripples. Ripples are going to be set in place. No, i do not think it is comfortable but i welcome and say "Praise the Lord" to these.

Life. I want to see life! Life represented by an entire church in worship and intercession, by an entire church on our knees, by an entire church evangelising, by an entire church filled with the Holy Spirit, by an entire church having no fear but the Fear of the Lord.

I want to see a fearless generation of warriors for the Lord, those who will not compromise or retreat, fallen at times but nonetheless ready to continue the battle to conquer the land for the Lord, to redeem what belongs to the Lord, to light up ancient paths and revival fire, to call forth and to be so broken for His Kingdom and Righteousness to Reign on this earth, in our society, in our workplaces, schools and homes.

Ripples. You who come opposing my Lord Jesus, do not mock the ripples, for the army the Lord is raising up will charge forth and tear down your strongholds. We come not by our strength but by the power of the Most High who had you trashed and defeated when Jesus died on the cross and resurrected. We come in His resurrection victory and you weak and pathetic army, fallen and dark, we are not afraid of you.

LOVE Declaration

Dear Ah Nor,

I had all the free time in the world today to type a love letter to you.

So how should I start?

My dearest, I want to let you know that I really appreciate your love for me. I cherish you and thank God that you are in my life. It has been a beautiful journey for me for the past three years. You have been a great companion and confidante. You have become so part of my life that I can no longer bear the thought of losing you though the Lord has always reminded me that you are not mine. You are His. Actually, the fact that you are His is a grace beyond measure. Many of my friends have partners too but they find themselves unequally yoked with their other halves. By God’s mercy, I found you, the rare, unrefined gem. God has intervened and allowed me to discover the vast potential in you to become a great man of God. And I am privileged to witness this sanctification process with you.

Are you shuddering from the mushy words? Well, once in a while, you do deserve to be praised and appreciated for who you are and what you have done...

I want to thank you for the many moments shared as a friend, confidante, companion, lover, boyfriend, brother, leader and supporter. Your presence in my life has been a blessing thus far and words can no longer suffice to describe my gratitude to God and you for our relationship (one that is brought together by fate, an end-time union, I believe).

I want to thank you for the many special moments when you warmed my heart and loved me. I remember the times when you pushed me around in the airport luggage trolley from terminal to terminal, when we held our forts on the double bed and behind the cupboard respectively during the socks fight, when you pick me up from the bus stop with an umbrella on a rainy day, when you prepared a treasure hunt for the kinder surprise eggs, when you chased after me yesterday on our anniversary day to stand by me when I am weary and drained out…etc.

From time to time you asked me why I love you. Well, I love you because you are who you are. Because my love for you was planned before the world came into creation, it was predestined to be stirred up for you. My heart wavered in the season of time for courtship and you came along during the Children’s Camp that year, 2003. But how could I then? We struggled with each other and wrestled individually with God for a long, long time (before and during courtship), until we found the answer that guarded our walk. We were the answered prayers in each other’s lives. Prayers made innocently long ago to a God who honors our heart’s desires and whose plans secure us and give us a good future, loaded with confirmations as we work towards a decision to share our life journey together.

You. You are the man whom God brought into my life to warm my heart. You are the laughter in times of sorrow, the comfort in times of pain, the voice in times of loss, the light illuminating the darkness, the strength in times of weariness, and the love in the place of void. No, I am not saying that you replace God, but you, you are a very special part of me, and you become more and more in my life over time. And you, you are used mightily by God to demonstrate and channel His love to me, to encourage me as I take on the demanding life challenges in this transient journey on earth.

To end off this love declaration =P, I just want to thank you. Thank you for choosing me even though it was the Lord who prompted you to love me. And I just want you to know how much I appreciated you, as a creation and a person, a companion and a friend, a Christian and a brother, a lover and a leader.

Thank you so much.
Thank you Ah Nor.

I love you.

Love in Christ
Ariel

A Day of Rest

God, today is supposed to be a day of rest when you reorganised me once again...i need you to speak to me once again....

I noe you are dooing great things in my life and you are meeting me daily...

But Father there is a dissatisfaction in my heart like there is something more and i am not reachng and i dunno how to hit the jackpot...

My heart and my strength fails...my ears are not sensitive enough... i need a breakthrough from the Lord....i need a session of thrashing....i need HUMILITY....


God, i need humility....

I need to be broken before you....

I need to give you the GLORY....

I need to be there....


THERE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!


At that place where i noe i am birthing forth....


It is not their journey....

It is my Journey....


MINE.


I need faith to begin and humility to tide through.


And only you can transform me into that.


That and there....the place where only you and i noe when i have reached.



BLOWN AWAY....BURST FORTH....BIRTH OUT.........


A groaning.........a period of childbirth.....i am giving birth.......delivery.....


I need you to help me break forth....


YEs LORD....i need a breakthrough in SINGAPORE....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




BURST FORTH!