Growing and Learning to be a Teacher

The Lord has been good to me these days...

Or rather the Lord has helped me to draw near to Him and to experience His Love so much these days...

Today is a blessed day, another day filled with the miracles of the Lord and the Lord's Grace and Mercy.

Thank Goodness...

These days i have been feeling a little stressed and uptight about school...and i think it will last all the way till the lesson observation on Thursday is over.

Like Weiwen, i wanted to see it as a pinch of salt but i guessed i dun have that amount of confidence in my teaching to not fret or flinch in the face of trial and test.

I am a scaredy cat...haha

But the Lord has been reminding me to be faithful. His Children of Light do not need to live in darkness, we do not need to keep things under wraps.

Transparency. I need to face this world with an upright transparency. Some may call it stupidity or inflexibility but i call it transparency.

I think i haven't learnt what it means to be strict to the students. Not yet. They always tell new teachers not to condemn the students and to be flexible sometimes....maybe for contract teachers like myself, it would be more helpful had they told me to be stricter and to take up the authority that comes with the title of a Teacher.

There is so much to learn on this journey.
Much fear to overcome and much that transpires daily for me to reflect on.

Growth is such a slow process, the impatient me struggles day by day...

Oh Lord, Help me God...

I need to survive this week...and STRIVE and THRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts...about my Great God

One of those days when i am done with the class and has finished planning for my week's lesson.

Tis been some time since i last blogged. Much has happened since then and much to rejoiced for what the Lord has determined in His Sovereign plan to be executed on this earth.

The teeny Shuyi is still clinging for dear life and learning to pace herself on this eternal race.

I have much to learn and change....so much to be done during this sanctification process.

These days i learnt about humility and meekness, no, i've not master it and i reckon i never will...haha...God is teaching me so much about how small i need to be in His vast, unfathomable and established Kingdom. Minute, a speck of dust, yup tt's the adjectives i would use to teach my students about the size of man in the Eternal Kingdom. Microscopic or a trillion trillion times smaller...

The works of man are nothing but grace from the Lord to be able to collaborate with Him in His eternal plan. Independence from Him leads to such small accomplishments. I was just thinking about the logic of many people even Christians who exaggerate and worship the works of man, some who dun even believe in the supernatural (The concept of a God is supernatral anyway...) BUT...if we want to believe in what our eyes can see and what our senses tell us then probably that is all we are going to get. But if we choose to believe in the supernatural then God will work beyond the logics of man. But all these takes place without the knowledge and beyond the understanding of man.

I also dunno what i am talking about....i only noe that i am learning about God as the Master Strategist, the excellent chess player who is willing the chess game and we are the pawns of the game. Then again, it is not just that, He loves us, more than what we can ever imagine in our lives, more than our understanding of love and our rational reasoning and definition of love.

I dunno. I feel ridiculously small but exceedingly loved,
feels weird but feels right...


God, i want to prostrate at your feet, at the feet of Jesus i want to surrender all that i am and...


Just worship You and give You praise :)