Young and Immature

I could have said No easily but my little heart is wrestling and i got no answer from God...maybe coz i haven really seek Him...

The answer should have been obvious but apparently not. A rational answer will lead me to a No...i dun feel ready to take up another leadership position...for someone with so much pride and so little time with GOd...i really dun feel up to it.

Moreover...i've not even joined the organisation for 3 years...i am only 22 years old....doing homiletics weekly...calling up members...everything is so daunting...

I am so prideful...so slack....so not ready to do my readings....how can i be up to it???

But there is a part of me that wants to say Yes...to be serious about GOd's word...to read beyond the surface...to be forced to keep learning....because i am lazy if i am left on my own...but it won't be fair for my members if i make this my reason for accepting the service...

Speak to me Father...
Will i kill myself getting involved in this?





.....yes?